the visit - speir lyrics
[intro]
speir with me
h-ll, my buddy, paid me a visit came up to earth
stripped of every feeling i am naked - my rebirth
sh-t is worse than different, all of it is in reverse
swear that if i touch you you gon’ taste this f-ckin’ curse
[verse 1]
aye i haven’t got no time yeah i’ve got too much on my plate
he say ‘’i don’t really mind so i’ma sit in here and wait’’
getting late
so i end another bottle for the crave
all these demons pull me back so i’ve got people pushed away
i’m a ill b-tch f-cked up in my brain
bruised knuckles i don’t feel sh-t
smile up on my face
and i’m locked inside my cage
aye i’m lookin’ for the way to f-ckin’ cleanse me from my rage
runaway, everything i touch is meant to break (break, break, break)
lately i’ve got no one by my side
momma doesn’t look me in the eyes
i ain’t ready for the ride
i ain’t ready to decide
she say ‘’end it by tonight’’
d-mn i might (uh)
menacing thoughts in my mind
crossing the crossroads that sh-t’s outta line
even for me, meanin’ for now
i’ve been so sick and i’m feelin’ so tired
they say that lately i don’t even try
hopefully, no one be gettin’ my lies
no one can help me so cold in my fire
n-body listenin’ i wanna die! (i wanna die)
[bridge]
what’s the point in life
when i’m always feeling lifeless?
all the swings you take at me
never hurt my numbness
thinkin’ ‘’should i try?’’
no, i’ll die, guess that’s best
haven’t felt alive in a while
no difference
[verse 2]
st-tchin’ my cuts (yeah)
i’ve had enough (yeah)
fillin’ my cup and i won’t ever stop
no matter how rough (yeah)
then, stop in my tracks
n-body cares i’d rather be somewhere
i’m begging not here
if i could, honestly i’d disappear
i’ma walk quietly, no one will hear
walk out from this life (life)
walk out from strifes (strifes)
i cannot hold on man, i feel like i’ll die
how is this fair for a kid?
why is this the way that i feel?
man i wish i could deal better
rather be gone forever (uh)
better be dead than in h-ll in my head
awake in my bed every time that i bled
and that’s every day!
i’m going insane
hurtin’ myself tryna feel little pain
but i cannot feel sh-t
praying, i’m kneelin’
turnin’ to god and he turnin’ away
i know you can hear me!
come on and heal me (heal me)
this ain’t the real me (real me)
this ain’t the real me (real me)
she gonna k!ll me
n-body feels me
she gonna k!ll me
sure that she’ll slit my wrists
or i’m gonna do it
shoot i miss
how do i prove it?
thinkin’ i’m losing all that i have
too many voices inside of my head
[outro]
listen a lesson is this is a blessin’ and you need to come out alive
say your confession in one of my sessions
and i’ll never tell if you let out a cry
i’ve always been here, retracing your feelings and i’m gonna help you regain back your sight
you’ve gotta fight
we’ll cut the tie with this lucy you mentioned
i’ll hand you a knife
momma doesn’t look me in the eyes
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