crush - jojiboi lyrics
(humming)
yeah…
just want to start this off by saying i was always nervous
around the girls i found attractive and i thought they were perfect
i’d get so nervous that it’s kind of hard to write and word this out
so they can understand why back then i was so not worth it
guess it had something to do with their personalities
in my opinion, the only makeup they’ll ever need
it’s just sometimes i wish some could have felt what i was feeling
before deciding to rip my heart out and leave it bleeding
now i never said i hated all of them keep that in mind
i’m saying some werе lies and others they wеre really kind
no, not the fake kind of kindness those were the girls that lied
i’m talking about the ones who turned me down cause they found a guy
you’re talking about the ones who wouldn’t date me cause of my race
or cause i didn’t lift some weights, felt like a f*cking disgrace
and for those that did… i’m ashamed i even blushed…sh*t
i’m ashamed i rushed to call you my crush, f*ck…
it’s necessary to mention that i gave you so much attention
so much that low key regret it, man 8th grade had me so desperate
i should’ve done way less texting and weaved away all that stressing
cause you made me learn some lessons, like trying to get through detention
it isn’t you i hate or the tailored guys you date
i hate myself and everybody else who picked on me cause how i felt
back then, my friends would talk some sh*t about you, call you dirty
if only they knew that you were really sweet just really flirty
and kinda cute with just the right amount of quarky
guessing that’s why at the time i thought your type was perfect for me although…
you had some flaws came to figure so then i moved on
then one year later saw the girl that made me write this song
you know those feelings when your young and you find someone you like
you may not see them for a while but they’re still trapped in your mind
you start forgetting’ about them, then you come across them in high
when those feelings start growing into something you can’t describe
i use to see you at lunch and would look forward to it a bunch
but now when i see or think of you at all it feels like a punch
beating up and mugging my soul, wishing that i never imposed
on the fact that i should’ve arose
but i didn’t now i feel decomposed
like beethoven now i suppose, but i guess it was your fault
that i got scared sh*tless, made like a bathroom then just stalled
and what hurts mostly of all was the fact that problems arose
when somebody did that before me and gave it to you, i froze
point is i liked you a lot
so much that my mind didn’t really care about any thoughts
and i mean hoes who f*ck a lot, told myself that then but i lied
because this next girl one too
wishing back then that i knew, that she herself was bad news
waiting like shoulda, woulda, coulda
is a bell gonna go off in my head and say i misread her too?
if not, then why did i pursuit? was it really that hard to move?
guess not, cause she did that too, meaning she packed up and moved on the same day she let knew
you and i got so close to dating, instead now your just my hating
now regretting every single moment that i ever did spend with you, i’m not kidding
every single f*cking word that i said
every single f*cking text that i sent
all i do is sit and resent, all the times you f*cked with my head
all the times you walked through your home
because you said you felt alone
but the truth was you felt nothing cause it was all just a joke
i was too f*cking dumb to know, that you was just a f*cking ho
i wasn’t your crush.. you never felt love for me… all you felt was l*st
there were girls that i liked and wanted to get know
some that were pretty and fun, like speed down rocky roads
but there were girls that i liked, that should’ve made me think twice
they were like a belt of watches…a f*cking a waste of time
f*ck…
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