how much did it suck to be with me? - 90 proof lyrics

i can picture it so clearly
i’ll be alone
writing something like ‘for emma, long ago’
and it’ll turn out like sh*t
and i’ll never finish it

i’ve made my decisions and i’ve dug my own grave
every word that i chose don’t have the power i wish it gave
when i get so god d*mn lonely
i’ll make a fool out of me
i swear i’ll text you every day ’til you block me
f*ck, how much did it suck to be with me?
i love you so unhealthily